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| 10:06pm 30/05/2005 |
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NEW LIVEJOURNAL
PLEASE ADD!
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And Delete This one because its silly...
Bai E>
Much love,
Jyll =]
By the way..... i love you all! and i love my new car! |
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| IM GOING TO GET MY CAR TODAY! +SQUEE+ |
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| 12:08pm 28/05/2005 |
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mood:  giddy
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So im going to pick up my car in less than an hour and i am SOOO EXCITED!
Then tonight I am getting another whole in my body =]
SHUSH no one can tell anyone.
Then Im hopefully but doubtfully going to see Garrett tonight.
Then iunno whats going on.
I wanted to go camping today but i guess thats not happeneing because no one is home to ask
And then there is no where to go camping unless we go to the cottage... humm
that could be fun! =]
Well im off.... if anyone wants to do something call my cell..
.I will be around.
bai!
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| ...so alone and afraid with no one to turn to... |
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| 08:46pm 27/05/2005 |
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mood:  squee a new car! music: MCR
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...Everything Is Quickly falling apart.
I just wish I could turn back time and
re-do my life... So I wasnt left behind;
with no one... and so maybe i could fix
the things that HAVE gone wrong.
I miss being held and loved by someone...
I miss being the center of someones world.
I miss having someone BE the center of my world.
I miss having someone there to call when i need them.
I miss love; i miss you.
And "you" who ever you may be....
i hope you come find me soon because im dying here without you...
I can't keep being alone because its killing my slowly.
Im dying on the inside and no one knows it but me...
I hate complaining to my friends about being alone.
I hate seeing them all so happy with their boyfriends and girlfriends.
I hate everything about love because I can't be happy in it.
I can't be anything...
I just wish things could go back to how they were in grade school; boys had cooties.
The End.
pee.es.: I bought a car today =] and im picking it up tomorrow. I can't wait! WOOWEEE!!!!! =] |
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| the BREAKDOWN of my dayy "dawgs" |
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| 08:08pm 26/05/2005 |
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mood:  bouncy music: death cab
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So today was silly.
I went to school.
Played SOS with Steve all math class.
Talked about pirrttttty Garret in Music.
Went to Amandas for lunch.
Did nothing in fashion.
Listened to silly broadcasts in media arts from the 1930's.
sat around at the school until 3:25.
Went to work for 4.
Got off work at 5:00 when i was SUPPOSED to be off at 10.
Still getting paid for working until 10:00
Sitting here being bored thinking about Garret.
Wondering if there is anything that would ever happen.
Thinking negative on the previous thought.
Wondering what i am doing tomorrow after school seeing as i have zee car and no where to go... HUMM!
HOLLER BACK if ya wanna do something! =]
well k bai!
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| so i do whats it to ya?! |
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| 09:51pm 25/05/2005 |
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mood:  contemplative music: american idol in the other room
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So i like you. I don't know if you will ever read this. But i like you and I know your older than me and you think im a little kid... whether your just joking around or being serious.... well i just thought i should tell you that because I think it could be fun.... maybe even if we just become better friends =]
Well bai.
E> jyll |
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| 03:41pm 25/05/2005 |
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mood:  oh la la
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i wear my heart on my sleeve
and hide plastic spoons in my shirt.
i take photos and draw
i hide in my hair
i'm really ego-riffic.
and i'm almost positive you will remind me
something if you see me somewhere
i'm sentimental and opinionated
indecicive and forgiving,
stupid and sarcastic,
impatient and contradictive,
Dont talk to me like im stupid.
im probably smarter then you think
i care about certain people so much it hurts
i have 1/2inch wood plugs
i loose socks like nobodys buisness
i like juice boxes
i brush my teeth far to much
Alot of people are far to lame for me
but thats okay the ones who arent
mean the absolute WORLD to me
i cant take a complement
and sarcasm is my second language
but i guarentee ill find a million things
that i find beautiful about you
im not tall, and i dont have hot hair
so shut the fuck up
im not really tanned and i wear make-up
im shy till im sure your someone i want to know
and by that time your probably gone anyway.
im not gonna get all up in your face
your a waste of my time, unless you know me
i dont sleep alot at night.
i invented the sport E> cuddle psh. i wish E>
I love my friends more then anything
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| Grounded From The Net Till Friday |
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| 11:06am 25/05/2005 |
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mood: squee
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So i haven't been online in a while and im sad because I can't talk to my friends from far away and junk but thats ok because I have had the time now to actually work and do some homework and study for tests lol... I know tis a complete and total shock. pfft. So yea..
This weekend was awesome.
Friday I went to the cottage to put the boat lifts in then i had to work at 4 until 10... then i went home and went to bed....
Saturday I went back to the cottage and saw some friends/ family that came down.... that was fun then i left and headed over to Taylors house to go to Shannon and Cheryls house ( They are WAY sweet ladies might i add) So yea... we partied and junk. And I met a ton of new people and junk and it was SO MUCH FUN lol. Rob ended up puking all over the tent so Taylor and Tina make me a tent with a deflated air matress on the ground; a Tarp over top of me help up with 8 lawn chairs. It was way cute of them. But it was effing cold because i had no blanket because Rob puked on it. It sucked but it was really nice of them to make it for me. They are way sweet people. Thanks guys =] So yea.... we had pizza wake up at 4:30 ish by Rob... it was entertainig. Then he left and I played with the fire. Then i attempted to sleep but yea that didn't work lol. So i just layed there and stared at the fire burning. Then it started to rain. Lucky me i had my super cool tent fromt alyor and tina to keep me dry! lol....
Humm then Matt had to take Roxie home at 6:30 and junk and then he was up and I chatted with him and he cooked the left over pizza for me and Doug (even though Doug was still asleep in the tents) lmao. Matt ended up cooking everything he could find and throwing it at Dougs tent. Lets just say Doug wasn't too happy. lol But it WAS entertaining! lol. I wish it never ended it was great lol. Then finally at like 9 everyone got up and junk and Nicho drank a beer because he didn't want to waste the last one. Then everyone packed up and Rob and Matt had to clean their puke filled tents. That was enteretaining i wont lie to you it was.
OH EM GEE before that Doug and Matt wanted to brand Shannon and Cheryls neighbours goats. That didn't work out as planned luckily. lol.
But yea then everyone packed up and went home except for me. I was there till umm 11:30 .. wow i felt bad... but we had mac n cheese because Shannon was a GREAT cook =] then we watched Maury and then somehting to do with President Bush came on and we talked about him. It was silly but oh so fun.
Well class is over so im off... hopefully ill be back soon online,... if not cya all on SUNDAY! lol....
BAI E> |
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| 10:28pm 19/05/2005 |
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mood:  boohoo
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I don't like "you" anymore. I can't. It will destroy everything that we have done. Everything that we are. Sorry. I broke my heart myself once again. Damn me. I can't do anything right. I can't keep anything and I definately can't keep my heart from wanting to me held again. Geesh. Im hopeless. I really am... like I know it has'n't been long and all but i was talking to Rachel from work today and we were talking about relationship dead ends and junk and i think i have actually hit one of those. They really suck.... and not to mention hurt like a bitch because you see everyone else with someone that loves them. I turn one way and i see people hugging each other and I turn the other way and theres another couple holding hands. MAN it hurts! Like I don't know what to do or where to turn... and i feel bad complaing to my friends about it because hey I know they don't want to hear about it even though they say they don't mind. ugh.
+tear+ I think i should just give up.... oh wait i already have because i have no choice. haha im so smart! Geesh. This is such a depressing topic. And what hurts even more is when my friends say " oh you cna have any guy you want what are you complaining about!!! " FUCK its not that easy. Don't you think if it was I wouldn't be miserable all alone? Thats what I thought too. Guess they are all wrong. Fuck them and relationships (I don't mean that friends i love you with all my heart and if i can't have a relationship i still reeeaaallllllly want you guys)
Anyway before i start crying about this silly business i better get going.
But before i go... Rob and i are hanging out this weekend.... we are going to watch star wars 3 (i think thats what it is =s sorry all you star wars fans i don't know my star wars facts) on sunday and then after that we are going to go to shannons and her sisters house (I think thats their names) for a may 24 weekend party then we are camping out in their backyards and junk and then getting quite intoxicated if i believe what rob says lol. Then thats it...
So yea anyway im off ...
farewell beautiful peoples.
E> bai |
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| 11:04pm 18/05/2005 |
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mood:  oh geewhiz
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So i like someone as i have said before but I can't do anything about it because I don't want to ruin the friendship that we have. What should i do?!?!?!? someone please!!! Anything?! |
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| SWAMP BUDDIES ARE US! |
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| 09:46pm 15/05/2005 |
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mood:  TOO MUCH FOOD! music: mewithoutyou
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So I didn't do much today. I called Kieran and made him come crazy kyacking with me. It was quite entertaining. First of all we brought the two kyacks to the back creek and went for a "lovely" trip there. We got stuck so many times but it was SO worth it. There was so much that went wrong but i can't explain it in here because it wouldn't have the entertainment and excitment that it would if i told you in person. So then we turned around and came back. Then we had some food and Kieran went out on the lake... meanwhile there were white caps and he DEFIATELY got soaked. lmao. He didn't even make it off shore and he was soaked. Then he was coming in and all of a sudden there he is and then two seconds later there he isn't. He fell out because the water filled inside the kayack and he sunk lmao. So his wallet, cigarettes and clothing were DRENCHED lol. Not to mention i had a great laugh. So then he came in and we emptied the kayack. Then he changed and we ate a sandwich and were planning on going out one more time but my brother and Mike had to go to hockey so we dried off, put the kayacks away and went home. As soon as we got home Kieran and i jumped into his truck and went to his house to watch The Terminal while my mom and brother and his friend were at hockey. SO yea..... Then umm we had realllllly good fish at kierans. I think his daddy cooked it. Hes an awesome cook might I add. =]
Then mom came and got me and ended our fun.... then we went out for dinner! GOD I WAS FULL! DAMN IM FULL!
So then we went to Scotts to look at this little car.... and im gunna test drive it tomorrow and junk after school =]
So anyway yea... that was my sunday... and it was way fun! =] Still really tired from prom night but meh thats what i deserve! lol. So yea.... ummm not even a month left till exams then SUMMER BREAK! I CAN"T WAIT! lol./ Its going to be SO MUCH FUN! lol. Anywhoo yea i think i have talked enough....
BY THE WAY! I REALLY LIKE SOMEONE!!! EEK! (But i can't say who because hes a friend of mine and that could make it weird sadly.)
well loveyouallikewoah!
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| *~* Another Fucking Update *~* |
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| 11:09pm 14/05/2005 |
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mood:  im so damn bitter
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So yesterday was prom and it was way awesome because everyone looked so AMAZING!
Awh! I have so many pictures i have to get from everyone that went! lol.
So the day went like this....
Mom and i went for coffee at Shellys because her mom was down from Stratford and we have'n't seen her in a while so we went and "hung out" then we went and painted my nails because it was the cool thing to do... then we went to see Emily and she did my hair for me... which looked waaaayy amaZing! .... Then i went and picked up Rob and his Girlfriend Kim, brought them both back to my house.... did Kims hair... took them home so that they could get ready, then came home ate a quick snack and got ready .... then mom drove me BACK out to Robs house so that we could go to Kierans house to get Tina and Taylor. So after Robs mommy took a million pictures we were off to Kierans house to get Tina and Taylor. They both looked amazing!!! Then we had to take more pictures for Taylors mommy... and then we left for prom. We stopped at Tinas house so that she could get her fairy wings... and THEN we were off...
We arrived at the Chicarro Club and parked and junk and went inside. It was nice but kinda ackward. But thats ok. I found random people to talk to so i didn't have to stay with Rob and all them because I was the fifth wheel and i wasn't liking it. So yea I went off with random people and junk... then we all signed in and sat at our tables/ walked around and saw people/ ate chocolate and fruit that was on our tables and other random things. Then dinner was served at 7:30? no i think it was 7? ,meh. One of those two times... first came the pasta. it was ok. Neal ate like a whole plate and a half (the serving plates, not just his dinner plate lol) Then came the chicken parmasian, vegetables (beans and carrots), potatos and I think that was it. Then they brought out salad and icecream! haha They had their meals all mixed up! You don't bring out salad AFTER the main course! lol silly people... anyway yea... then while the ice cream was being served, the Prom Video was playing and it was so nice to see the memories.... not that any of them I knew about but just t be able to think that next year we will have the same things and we will have those memories to remember. ahh.. So then prom king/queen was announced along with an assortment of other awards then the dancing came. Too much fun i do say lol. We left prom at hell iunno what time. but we left early... and we WERE going to go to the Flying Monkey Cafe downtown but that didn't fall through because it was too late and it was closing... then we were going to go to Bubble Tea but when we ended up driving all the way down to the OTHER SIDE OF WYNDOTTE it was closed so we went to Pizza Pizza.... +rolls eyes+ Oh well. it was entertaining? Then we went to Stephs house and watched the drunk people be stupid and junk. Then i was getting really bored so i called my mom to come get me then things started to get exciting so i called her back and told her not to come... then we became QUITE entertained with the drunk people falling all over the place and saying the stupidest things.
Something i wont forget..... BOB* (names with stars have been changed for their confidentiality... if they want to tell you about it then by all means let them but i wont tell you.. its not my place) wanting to go streaking to tim hortons... and everytime someone would say Tim Hortons he would burst into hystarical laughter! Oh man it was HILARIOUS! wow!... anyway yea... Being entertained by the drunks was awesome... that lasted till 5:30 when i called for a ride home for some reason... i think i was tired! haha... but yea... I was tired so i called mom and she came and got me at 5:30 in the morning.... everyone that was sober was in shock that i could get a ride at 5;30 IN THE MORNING! haha but yea that was that... then as soon as I got home i stripped off my clothing and jumped into bed. I didn;t wake up till 1 because mom woke me up to go see my dahling Angela! (shes FINALLY BACK FROM FRANCE EVERYONE)
We hung out together for two good hours looking at pictures of her in France and all that kind of stuff and then i showed her my prom pictures and everything was so much fun! Man she isn't aloud to leave me for THREE MONTHS agaiN! lol... but I will be leaving her in February for three months but we will get it worked out just fine =]
So she brought me back some awesome presents! A WAY WAY WAY SWEET PAWN SHOP RING that only her and i could love, hair sticks for my "long hair" (they are SOOO useless to me... and THAT is why she got them for me... oh and because there are naked chicks on it) lol.... Then she also got me a keychain and MAYO AND KETCHUP PACKAGES IN LITTLE CONTAINERS LIKE WHAT YOU WOULD GET BARBQUE OR PLUM SAUCE FROM A FAST FOOD PLACE! Man it was awesome! I will never eat it ever! lol.
At three i left her house and went home and had a nap +blushface+ I slept until 3:45 when i had to bolt out the door to go to work. THAT sucked. So i had to change shifts last night or else i would have been working 10 IN THE EFFING MORNING TO 4 in the afternoon after bein up till almost 6 in the morning... which would have way sucked because i would have been even more useless than i was on the afternoon shift. So i worked in the back today and junk and all i did was make hamburgers! It was great! SO EASY lol. Then George made some top secret desserts for us and we ate them right there... oh it was SOO GOOD! Then i got to leave work three hours early... i called Rob to see if he wanted to bring kim over and watch a movie but like i expected from him... he said no. so i went looking for cars instead. No tomorrow I am hoping that I can get a hold of Kieran before i leave for grandmaws because I want him to come kayacking tomorrow because its supposed to be great and I said that we would go.... anyway yea...
Thats the end of yesterday/todays update... and now heres my thought of right now.....
I like someone! And I told Rob that I liked this person then the next day i said i dind't.. but i have been thinking... no i really think i do like him. But its sad because i know nothing will ever happen because hes him && im me && nothing that good ever happens.
So Rob... if you ever read this.... i Do like him & & I don't know what to do... or how i can push those feelings away because they have to go away because I they are hopeless and useless....
Anyway...
Im mad at someone as well... but im hoping that their asshole ness will end monday when something happens because if it doesn't they can sure as hell say goodbye to me as a friend no matter how much they say they "need me" .... i absolutely HATE people that say they are going to do one thing and then in the heat of the moment they completely fold and leave you hanging and looking like a COMPLETE fool. Thanks a bunch "friend"
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| 09:43pm 14/05/2005 |
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mood: im so damn bitter
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So yesterday was prom and it was way awesome because everyone looked so AMAZING!
Awh! I have so many pictures i have to get from everyone that went! lol.
So the day went like this....
Mom and i went for coffee at Shellys because her mom was down from Stratford and we have'n't seen her in a while so we went and "hung out" then we went and painted my nails because it was the cool thing to do... then we went to see Emily and she did my hair for me... which looked waaaayy amaZing! .... Then i went and picked up Rob and his Girlfriend Kim, brought them both back to my house.... did Kims hair... took them home so that they could get ready, then came home ate a quick snack and got ready .... then mom drove me BACK out to Robs house so that we could go to Kierans house to get Tina and Taylor. So after Robs mommy took a million pictures we were off to Kierans house to get Tina and Taylor. They both looked amazing!!! Then we had to take more pictures for Taylors mommy... and then we left for prom. We stopped at Tinas house so that she could get her fairy wings... and THEN we were off...
We arrived at the Chicarro Club and parked and junk and went inside. It was nice but kinda ackward. But thats ok. I found random people to talk to so i didn't have to stay with Rob and all them because I was the fifth wheel and i wasn't liking it. So yea I went off with random people and junk... then we all signed in and sat at our tables/ walked around and saw people/ ate chocolate and fruit that was on our tables and other random things. Then dinner was served at 7:30? no i think it was 7? ,meh. One of those two times... first came the pasta. it was ok. Neal ate like a whole plate and a half (the serving plates, not just his dinner plate lol) Then came the chicken parmasian, vegetables (beans and carrots), potatos and I think that was it. Then they brought out salad and icecream! haha They had their meals all mixed up! You don't bring out salad AFTER the main course! lol silly people... anyway yea... then while the ice cream was being served, the Prom Video was playing and it was so nice to see the memories.... not that any of them I knew about but just t be able to think that next year we will have the same things and we will have those memories to remember. ahh.. So then prom king/queen was announced along with an assortment of other awards then the dancing came. Too much fun i do say lol. We left prom at hell iunno what time. but we left early... and we WERE going to go to the Flying Monkey Cafe downtown but that didn't fall through because it was too late and it was closing... then we were going to go to Bubble Tea but when we ended up driving all the way down to the OTHER SIDE OF WYNDOTTE it was closed so we went to Pizza Pizza.... +rolls eyes+ Oh well. it was entertaining? Then we went to Stephs house and watched the drunk people be stupid and junk. Then i was getting really bored so i called my mom to come get me then things started to get exciting so i called her back and told her not to come... then we became QUITE entertained with the drunk people falling all over the place and saying the stupidest things.
Something i wont forget..... BOB* (names with stars have been changed for their confidentiality... if they want to tell you about it then by all means let them but i wont tell you.. its not my place) wanting to go streaking to tim hortons... and everytime someone would say Tim Hortons he would burst into hystarical laughter! Oh man it was HILARIOUS! wow!... anyway yea... Being entertained by the drunks was awesome... that lasted till 5:30 when i called for a ride home for some reason... i think i was tired! haha... but yea... I was tired so i called mom and she came and got me at 5:30 in the morning.... everyone that was sober was in shock that i could get a ride at 5;30 IN THE MORNING! haha but yea that was that... then as soon as I got home i stripped off my clothing and jumped into bed. I didn;t wake up till 1 because mom woke me up to go see my dahling Angela! (shes FINALLY BACK FROM FRANCE EVERYONE)
We hung out together for two good hours looking at pictures of her in France and all that kind of stuff and then i showed her my prom pictures and everything was so much fun! Man she isn't aloud to leave me for THREE MONTHS agaiN! lol... but I will be leaving her in February for three months but we will get it worked out just fine =]
So she brought me back some awesome presents! A WAY WAY WAY SWEET PAWN SHOP RING that only her and i could love, hair sticks for my "long hair" (they are SOOO useless to me... and THAT is why she got them for me... oh and because there are naked chicks on it) lol.... Then she also got me a keychain and MAYO AND KETCHUP PACKAGES IN LITTLE CONTAINERS LIKE WHAT YOU WOULD GET BARBQUE OR PLUM SAUCE FROM A FAST FOOD PLACE! Man it was awesome! I will never eat it ever! lol.
At three i left her house and went home and had a nap +blushface+ I slept until 3:45 when i had to bolt out the door to go to work. THAT sucked. So i had to change shifts last night or else i would have been working 10 IN THE EFFING MORNING TO 4 in the afternoon after bein up till almost 6 in the morning... which would have way sucked because i would have been even more useless than i was on the afternoon shift. So i worked in the back today and junk and all i did was make hamburgers! It was great! SO EASY lol. Then George made some top secret desserts for us and we ate them right there... oh it was SOO GOOD! Then i got to leave work three hours early... i called Rob to see if he wanted to bring kim over and watch a movie but like i expected from him... he said no. so i went looking for cars instead. No tomorrow I am hoping that I can get a hold of Kieran before i leave for grandmaws because I want him to come kayacking tomorrow because its supposed to be great and I said that we would go.... anyway yea...
Thats the end of yesterday/todays update... and now heres my thought of right now.....
I like someone! And I told Rob that I liked this person then the next day i said i dind't.. but i have been thinking... no i really think i do like him. But its sad because i know nothing will ever happen because hes him && im me && nothing that good ever happens.
So Rob... if you ever read this.... i Do like him & & I don't know what to do... or how i can push those feelings away because they have to go away because I they are hopeless and useless....
Anyway...
Im mad at someone as well... but im hoping that their asshole ness will end monday when something happens because if it doesn't they can sure as hell say goodbye to me as a friend no matter how much they say they "need me" .... i absolutely HATE people that say they are going to do one thing and then in the heat of the moment they completely fold and leave you hanging and looking like a COMPLETE fool. Thanks a bunch "friend"
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| 08:16pm 12/05/2005 |
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mood:  PROMS TOMORROW!!!! music: Fall Out Boy - No Body Puts Baby In The Corner
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So school was school today... in math i slept... then for the last half hour Steve and i played tic-tac-toe and i wanted to play it tomorrow but i realized that I WONT BE AT SCHOOL BECAUSE OF PROM WOOOOOWWWWEEE! I can't wait! lol. So yea... I went to all my classes and junk and im almost done my pants that I made; i just have to put the draw string in and hem them! I can't wait! They are gunna be soooo effing hawt! lol So yea... I stayed after school for a bit waiting for mom but then Nicole drove me to work instead. Im really proud of her! WE DID NOT DIE! lol. But we are now ( what i believe to be) certified gangstarrrrz! We rolled down the windows in her wagon and BLASTED this rap crap and danced... it was HILARIOUS! Anyway yea I have a whole shit load of stuff I have to do before prom tomorrow so im out!
OVER AND OUT!
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| 09:04pm 11/05/2005 |
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So...... i worked today from 4-8 and im finally sitting down and having some peace and quiet. But meh.. i have been thinking... I finally like someone.... but I don't think actually no no no i KNOW they don't like me... and i have just found out that their previous girlfriend dumped him.... humm... wouldn't it be way sweet if I could catch a guy like him! DAMN ME! lol... Anyway i work tomorrow 4-10 and I really don't want to but meh I guess I have to +tear+
Then PROM IS FRIDAY!
WWWEEEEEEWWWHHHHHOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!
I can't wait! its going to be SOO fun! lol. Anyway yea I think i have rambled on about nothing enough so im going to sleep even tho its only 9:17 lmao! Night everyone!
bai!
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| 09:14pm 09/05/2005 |
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mood: boohoo damn me
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So im in a really depressed mood lately... and i don't really know why. Like i was stanging at the counter today at work and all of a sudden i just started to cry! Like what the hell... so i went into the bathrooms and pretended to clean them... it was really sad. Then i moped around the whole time. Man im such a loser!
guh! I hate myself sometimes.... i just need to cuddle....
yea thats what i need a huge cuddle session..... +dreams+ yepp thats it.
So i've been e-mailing the guys i made friends with at the Weezer concert... they are way awesome guys but Jake is the cutest of em all... sorry guys... he kept me warm!
Anyway speaking of guys... if anyone knows any skinny emo boys that are single and looking for a loser like me please hook me up! =]
Well im gunna go to sleep cuz i feel like shit and I just want to die right now. So instead of dying, i will just sleep forever or at least until i find a pretty skinny emo boy that will cuddle with me...
+sigh+
Until then i shall dream.
Farewell everyone...
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| 08:07pm 08/05/2005 |
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mood:  oh baby! music: mewithoutyou
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Well first of all I would like to say
Happy belated Cinqo de mayo all you wanna be mexicans!!! .05.05.05.!!!!!
So i guess i have alot to update on in here...
lets start with IM GOING TO PROM! YEAY!!!!!!
Im going as Christis guest but im going in a different car, sitting at another different table, and going to another different after party =\ haha but thats still awesome because im going to PROM! And its ok the 13th! NEXT EFFING FRIDAY!
I already have my dress... i look like a princess in it which is ok but its not really my style. Oh well........ Its still pretty. Anyway yea then umm............ yea im going to prom! lol
Next big event! Weezer concert was two days ago (thursday) And it was way fun.... we had a huge tail gate party in the back of Nicoles moms van and it was sooooo yummy lol. Then we went and waited in line and junk for ever! lol then you guys wont believe this... but i saw SKINNY JIMMY! (I know no one knows who he is so ill give ya the short story... hes a really skinny american named jimmy that i met in canada when him and his friends were really drunk downtown =] )
So yea im really proud of myself that I actually remembered him and his friends lmao... but anyway yea I told them to come and stand in line with us because they would never get in. so we chated a bit and hung out but thats about it. So then the line finally started moving and junk and we went in and went to our seats (we had balcony seats but thats ok because they were actually really good. So we sat down and there was like an hour and a half left till the concert started... so we all went (in shifts because thats the cool thing to do) to look at the merch. It was awesome but really expensive, so nicole is bringing me back something from the Toronto concert (which was the very next day... that crazy weezer fan she is). So then when weezer came on stage after the opening band (ringside) Nicole actually started to cry! haha it was amazing! The concert was awesome!
Then after the concert we went outside and stood by the busses for almost an two hours.... maybe longer maybe shorter time? Who knows lol all i know is that we met three reeeaaaaallllllyyy pretty boys and we chatted and i got their e-mails and then amanda and nicole all yelled at me because i can "pick up guys" what are they smoking! guh!
So yea we chated with the pertty boys for the whole time we stood there waiting for Weezer to come out but they never did.... the only good thing about freezing outside waiting for the band to come out was getting to cuddle with a very pertty skinny boy named Jake. But none the less the night was a hit and i can't wait to see nicole when she gets home ....
I think i will finish this post later... maybe tomorrow....
Ok so im back and its sunday night... and im really bored but thats ok because its mothers day and im mad at my mom... haha...
so anyway!
Last night was amazing! So much fun! lol. Rob came over and we hung out then Brian, Greig, and Jordan came over and then we all went to Scotty Wears house because I guess thats the cool thing to do =S So yea then we came back here and drank... i think i drank the most... i had been drinking since 11 that morning hha.... whoops! Anyway yea....
Then at like I don't know 12 maybe 11 who knows when... Brian, Greig, and Jordan left and Rob and I drank some more and came online here.... didn't do much but thats ok =] Then we told Kieran to come over so he came over at like 2 and left at 3 because his mommy called him and told him it was too early in the morning for coffee (he left a note for his mom saying that he was going out for coffee) lol... hes my hero... golly i heart him...
So yea we had a ball..
We went to sleep at like 4 this morning and woke up at like 10 (well i woke rob up later but thats becuase I made breakfast and didn't want him to have to wait and be bored)
So for mothers day I got my mom a mani & a pedi so that'll be nice for her then a few statues and junk and I made some Strawberry Cup Tarts.... ask Rob how they were... (my mom MADE him eat one lol) Then we cleaned up the battlefield from the party the night before in the back yard, got dressed and took Rob home and went to the grandparents house.
Then while at the Grandparents house i slept on the front deck in the sun overlooking the "beautiful Lake Erie" So yea I don't know... then i woke up because my hip hurt lol. Then yea we ate dinner and came home. Thats about it and now im working on a project and i gotta fly so everyone fill out this thing below and have a rip roaring night! haha
kbai!
Describe me in four words:
What is your first memory about me:
How long have we been friends:
Name one thing you don’t like about me:
Name one thing you do like about me:
If we could spend a day together,what would we do:
If you could give me a gift,what would It be:
Have we ever hugged:
Have you ever seen me cry:
Have I ever offended you:
What is something embarassing I’ve done:
What do I usually look like when you see me:
What do I say all the time:
What do I do that annoys you:
Do you think we’ll be friends in 5 years:
Is there anything you want to tell me,but you wont:
If you could give me advice,what would it be:
A song that reminds you of me is..:
Do I have a crush:
Describe me with one word(not one of the ones that were used before):
What was your first impression of me: |
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Hai.
Earlier i entered the link to my photobucket for everyone to see and some people were saying it wasn't working but it is working now so everyone enjoy the millions of pictures and if you have any please send them to me! Thanks!
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| Back from Chicaggiee! |
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| 06:59pm 30/04/2005 |
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mood:  +zzzzzz+ music: mewithoutyou
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So im back from chicago now and it was an awesome trip... kinda.... lol
We left on tuesday and that was jolly.
We got on the bus and junk and i was sitting with Jeff... no prob at all right?! well he was boring so i left him and went to
sit with boyer and he got all sad because I left him but thats not what I want to talk about... so we were on the road and
junk and it was fine. I wasn't too bored but i wasn't haveing the time of my live mind you!
So i sat with Boyer for the whole ride... and i met a whole bunch of people.... Three girls that I romed with were sooo
nice.... Rachel, Amanda and Rani. They were way nice let me say that again lol.
Anyway we got to Chicago and we chcecked into our rooms and junk then we had like 45 minutes or something like that to get
"fresended up" and junk and back onto the bus to go to the Sears Tower.... it was pretty fun.. we got some awesome pictures
(yes including boyer and brina being quite silly boys) lol. They are all posted on my photobucket if you want to see them.
Then we went to the Navy Pier where we had lunch/dinner then went on the ferris wheel , the super fun swings (three times
might i add) and played mini golf. Amanda and i also made bears... mines name is Lexxxi and hers name is I can'remmeber
+blushface+ but shes a chearleader like Amanda! Shes cute. Anyway then we practically ran no we actually did run back to
the bus to head back to the hotel for bed.
When we were back at the hotel we sat around our room and played cards (at leat attempted to) and then ate candy and chips.
Then at 11 the guys were kicked out and we all went to sleep.
Wednesday we were up bright and early to go the the Historic Pullman District... it was way boring but kinda cool in a way.
I think it was just that it was so early and so bloody cold. After that tour we went to an old hotel there which was
absolutely gorgeous (once again all the pictures are in photobucket! =])
*** BY THE WAY there was a strange guy that joined our tour group and i so have pictures of him because he bothered the hell
out of me! haha. Anyway yea...
Then we went to Michigan Avenue and had lunch at the Cheese Cake Factory... OH EMM GEE it was amazing! We had so much food
but it was soo worth it lol. Then we had to pack all the food up and RUN to the bus because the food took so long... then we
went on a "Gangstar Tour" and it was ok... wasn't anything we all expected. I think alot of us on the bus fell asleep. I
kinda felt bad about that but oh well. Then we got to shop for about an hour probably less on Michigan Ave. and when we met
up to go to Andy's Jazz club, these three black guys came up to Jordan, Taylor, and Andy and polished their shoes... AFTER
they were done they told Taylor that it was going to cost him $6 a SHOE! OH EMM GEE! i would have cried if it was me!Afte
that we walked over to Andys Jazz Club which was way nice... it wasn't anything special or anything but it was a nice little
place and the jazz was awesome... (once again i have pictures and video from it on my photobucket account) They had dinner
there for us but we were SO full from the Cheese Cake Factory that we all didn't eat much. I felt really bad about that but
I tried to eat as much as I could. Anyway yea then we walked around Chicago with Woody our tour guide and talked about
everything and saw alot of stuff. It was so nice!
Thursday we went to the Shedd Aquarium and saw millions and trillions of FISH! and a dolphin show... it was fun =] Then we
went to the Planetarium which was nice but not at all what i was expecting. We saw a midget and Brian and Boyer couldn't
keep themselves from laughing their asses off... but it was ok because the midget left and this awesome black woman took his
place when it was our turn to go on the thingy (yea I don't know what its called) and it was all good. Then we left and went
back to Michigan Avenue for deep dish pizza. We went to Pizzaria Due... it was ok. There was this black guy outside that
got mad at our WHOLE GROUP because we wouldn't give him any money and he accused us all of being KLANS MEMBERS!!! HE TOLD US
THAT HE KNEW WE WEREKLANS MEMBERS AND WE SHOULD WATCH OURSELVES BECAUSE WE WILL BE KILLED and junk like that! Then on our
way out after lunch, Boyer offered the guy something like $5 Canadian and the man told him that Canadian money wasn't
anything and that he should go to hell. Non the less i was not too comfortable!. Anyway after that we were late for our
Articetural tour and had to shave an hour or so off... which was sad because the history of those buildings was absolutely
amazing!... I now know alot that I didn't know before! But along with being cut an hour short, our guide had to cut our
tour shorter because one of the girls wasn't feeling well so we went back and went into the gift shop where i met the cutest
guy ever! His name is Eric and he works at the Gift Shop. Awh! Hes so nice and we are now friends.! =] Anyway yea.... so
we bothered him for a while till the rest of the other groups came back then we left for FOUR HOURS OF SHOPPING a Gurnee
Mills Shopping Mall. Sarah and I went into the Blackmarket shop there and this guy game me a vile of strange looking rocks
and told me i should keep these forever and treasure them... so now they are sitting on my dresser lol. Anyway ... then we went to Claires and junk and all sorts of other stores. We went to Pacsun and i got my brother two t-shirts that he loves, and then wen went to Hot Topic and i got two shirts. One At The Drive-in and one Letter Kills. I was gunna get some Vans slip ons but they had all other sizes but mine so i didn't.... sadly. lol. Oh well ill get another pair to join my other ones soon lol. Then I went to Rave and met up with Rachel and Randi and they "made" me buy two polo type shirts but its ok because they were cheap anyway. After that we went to the food court and they got subs from subway and i got a smoothy and then we headed back to the meeting place to go to the bus, oh and i almost forgot! i got some WWAAAAAYYYYY awesome glass earrings.... DOUBLE ZEROS WOOT WOOT lol and they are way awesome. Ill put a pic in my photobucket sooner or later lol.
Then it was back to the hotel for the night.
Friday we were up again and breakfast was pancakes bacon and juice. (Rachel made a bet on thursday that we were going to have pancakes on Friday because we had eggs, bason, toast and juice on wednesday, frenchtoast, bacon, and juice thrusday so she said we were going to have pancakes, bacon, and juice and she was right lol) So then we were off to the early morning boat cruise of the Chicago River. Besides the cold, the cruise was abzolutely amazing!... It was well worth my time i do think lol. I got a ton of pictures and once again you know where they are!!! Then we went for lunch on Michigan Ave once agian and Taylor, Andy, Matt, Sarah and myself went all over looking for a belt for Andy then we went to Starbucks and then to Crate and Barrel and Taylor bought this amazing cast iron tea pot. Its mighty nice. Then we went to Virgin Records and I bought two mewithoutyou cd's and the best of the monkees. After that we raced back to our meeting place and were off to my heros house.... Frank Lloyd Wright. He is an absolutely amazing architect. I wasn't able to take and photograps of his home so that really sucked but its ok because i have it all in my head and its still just as amazing. Wow. Thats all i have to say about that tour. I got my mom a book mark that has the Frank Lloyd Wright mark on it... and then we jumped back on the bus and headed home. We stopped for dinner and i just stayed on the bus and listened to my new cd's... (WAY AWESOME) lol. Then we were off again. We got home at about 10:30pm; then i had to drive Mr. Wear home.
I almost moved into his house.... lmao then he bought it lol. Anyway yea that made me get home at like 11:20 so i wasn't in bed until 1 ish because I showed my brother all of the things i got him and I gave my mom and dad all the things I got them and we chated and junk then i went to sleep after i read some of my book.
And now here i am today sitting here being bored even tho its like what 7:00pm!.... Today i didn't wake up until about 1:00 and then i sat on here for a while then mom called and we went out to look at cars for me because mom and dad are buying me a car! WOOT WOOT lol. we saw a couple nice ones. Then we came back home and cooked dinner and now im off to take my brother and his friend to hockey in south windsor! +rolls eyes+ man i don't want to go! Oh well.
Then tomorrow maybe will be better and i will be able to see Rob because we were supposed to do something today but that didn't come through for many different reasons.... hockey being one of the main ones....
Anyway im off to South Windsor arena... toodles!
Have fun!
BY THE WAY! The link to my photobucket is :
http://photobucket.com/albums/y117/ur_so_emo/
Check out the pics!!!! |
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| *~* A Fucking Update *~* |
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| 04:18pm 21/04/2005 |
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mood: *~* you <3 my fucking updates music: emanuel
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Hai everyone,
i haven't updated in a LLOOONNNNGGG time but thats ok because here i am now to do it lol. I leave for Chicago on Tuesday... thats gunna be way awesome, then weezer concert in two weeks... then bubble tea on the 28th of May, oh but on the 25th im going up to London with Rob if he still is going and still wants me to go... that should be So fun =)
So yea... there hadn't bene much to update on in here sadly because im a loser baby as you all probably know!
I have been thinking lately tho... i know BAD IDEA... but i have and this is what i have come up with as the dream guy i want.... if i could have anything i would want
someone who will love me in the worst mood... someone who won't laugh when I do stupid things such as crying over silly things, not being able to talk at times, or kissing the roof of my car everytime I go through a yellow light... I want someone who will kiss my forehead while I'm sleeping... someone who won't apologize for the bad things that happen unless it's their fault... I want someone who will rock out to the corniest music with me or at least not make fun when I do it by myself... I need someone who will respect me... and have enough respect for themselves... I want someone who will walk me to my door and kiss me like they mean it... I want someone who I can bring home to my parents and be proud and someone who will bring me home to their parents and introduce me as their girlfriend... I want someone who will stare up at the stars with me just because... I want someone who likes to makeout in the rain... someone who will be honest and call me out when I make them mad, but doesn't freak out when I do the same... I want someone who likes to just drive for the hell of it, and will take walks to nowhere, but be happy because we are together...
if you exist... I'm here E>
I want someone who will accept my bad habits and respect me enough to keep to themselves how much they hate them... I want someone who will play with my hair when I'm sleepy... I want someone who won't make fun of me for having so many pins... I want someone who won't be annoyed with how messy I am.
I want someone who won't laugh when I cry to movies like An American Tale or The Fox and The Hound... I want someone who can pound a few shots of Southern Comfort no chaser with a smile on their face... I want someone who will be honest enough to tell me I look like shit when I do... I want someone who enjoys looking at pictures of my past because they want to get to know me that much more... I want someone who will takes drives to far away places while I take photographs... I want someone who will be proud of me when I make little accomplishments like getting an A- on a paper I never thought I would do good on and someone who will push me to complete even bigger goals.
I haven't found you yet, but I know you're out there... I'm still here E/>
On a brighter note.....
::BOYFRIEND APPLICATION::
Name:
Age:
Location:
Height:
Weight:
Hair Style:
Hair Color:
Eyes:
Tattoos/Piercings:
OTHER:
1. where would we go on dates?
2. who are three of your favorite bands?
3. what kind of music do you listen to?
4. do you drink/smoke?
5. do you like the beach? if so...would you go with me late at night? if so...what would we do?
6. do you like movies? if so would you stay up and watch them with me all night?
7. do you play an instrument? if so...what?
8. favorite body part on a girl?
9. what would you say is the best thing about yourself?
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